Per Diem for February 2020: Sickness
Per Diem: Daily Haiku for February 2020 features Paul Conneally’s collection on the theme of ‘Sickness’. This is a subject that is very personal and ‘close to home’ for Paul, who is currently caring for his ailing mother. It is worth noting that Paul has assembled this collection under great duress and has been unable to provide a summary for it. We are very grateful for his determination to complete the collection under the circumstances. The poems he has chosen are powerful and raw, and have clearly been influenced by his current plight. We hope that the process of putting it together has offered him the opportunity for some positive reflection during a difficult time.
The collection includes some Japanese originals for which Paul has provided his own transliterations.
– Rob Scott
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Now right now
there is no shortage at home
Fresh roses
Dear Paul,
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Delighted that Karen Hoy’s haiku appears today, much appreciated.
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difficult day
the rice lid rocks
from side to side
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Karen Hoy
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Published:
Lakeview International Journal of Literature and Arts Vol.1, No.2 August 2013
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Anthology:
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Wishbone Moon
ed. Ellen Compton, Roberta Beary and Kala Ramesh (Jacar Press, 2018)
http://jacarpress.com/wishbone-moon/
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Wow, thank you for featuring another haiku.
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I remember Hortensia Anderson commenting about liking this haiku, which was an honour indeed.
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ill all day…
a crime novel
in both rooms
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Alan Summers
Blithe Spirit vol. 17 no.1 (2007); Disclaimer, (Bath Spa University 2008); haijinx vol. III issue 1 (2010)
Anthology: Haiku Friends Vol 2 ed. Masaharu Hirata (Osaka, Japan 2007)
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Thanks Paul for selecting this poem for today! 🙂
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Cat moon
my wife ill
with posset
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Alan Summers
Lakeview International Journal of Literature and Arts Vol.1, No.2 (August 2013)
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My wife cracks up whenever she reads this! It was a particular evening in a new restaurant that used to be an old fashioned and run down pub in Bradford on Avon (Wiltshire, UK). They’d obviously done something wrong and Karen did start to get really ill. Thankfully we lived further up the hill and she had to take the day off. We can look back with humour now. 🙂
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Posset: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Posset
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tick tick
still silence speaks lot more
in her heart
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it’s another day
of saying goodbye
and one more I love you
that the morphine
doesn’t take away
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Alan Summers
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Ripples in the Sand
2016 Tanka Society of America Members’ Anthology
ed. Susan Constable and Jenny Ward Angyal
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Beautiful Alan
Very moving Alan.
A few poems I wrote for my mother, over the many years since she died.
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Taking turns
Letting each other go
Only to learn again
How love grows,
Mother
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“Taking turns” was published in Bell’s Letters Poet No. 115, Jan. 2006.
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Mother’s Day
sorrow turns to stars
and butterflies
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another year
has passed since
my mother’s passing
I sit and quietly read
a book she would like too
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And I’ll add this poem:
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gardens in winter
the serene snowfall
and remembering
where snowdrops
will bloom
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Blessings, take good care
her doctors appointments
crowding the blue mountain
of his business card
Thank you for sharing Sheila
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pages turning in silence the hospice
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Alan Summers
Frogpond 40:3 (2017)
#monoku
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last note of the day
a sound of laughter from us
over the stairwell
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Alan Summers
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While caring for my mother, including one six month initial stint, 24/7 sometimes more than 20 hours a day, I realised that laughter was vital. That first six months with no help, and my wife was also ill at the same time, took its toll.
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Getting one good social services person, forever grateful to her, meant I could find room for making sure laughter was the last thing at night, and often one of the first things in the morning.
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We can remember laughing over something, even if we can’t remember what the heck it was we are laughing about later that day! 🙂
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cracking up
with laughter
moonlight
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Alan Summers
Dear esteemed poet,
Greetings, your note, reference to the
“a sound of laughter” really essential for all our day today living,
with your narration- very interesting.
Dear Radhamani sarma,
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I think it might have been Karen who realised that if my mother’s short term got any worse, she would or could still remember laughing at something, and with someone or me! 🙂
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So I made it my mission for my mum to laugh more than once a day, and definitely end on a good laugh whenever I left the house. So we always left each other’s company in laughter.
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When I barely slept an hour a day for six months non-stop it was difficult, as sleep deprivation was effecting. I had started being susceptible to the slightest quiet sounds in case it was my mother who had fallen.
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Alan
Alan –
Laughter is essential for getting through hard times. Thank you for expressing that so well – it is an important reminder!
I love this poem. Laughter is essential during a lengthy illness, to lighten the mood for carers and cared for.
Dear Paul, I treasure the memories of helping with my mother’s care – many years ago. And I know chronic illness in my own life. Hard years, good years.
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groceries for Mom
fresh flowers
always on the list
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peaceful morning
a prayer from childhood
still with me
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Blessings, and thank you
Thank you! My mother died today. A release fo her but for me a huge loss.
Paul, my sympathy to you on your loss.
I am so sorry!
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My mother waited until a cleaner ushered myself and my sister out, and it was the first time we talked properly in decades. So we must have been chatting for twenty minutes or more, and had no idea our mum had chosen that time.
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Two weeks later my birth mother also died, in another part of the world. My Aussie sister had a warning from the hospital. Her Mining boss threw her his car keys and she literally dived into the car, and drove from Kalgoorlie to Perth in record speed. They had time to talk to each other. It was surprising how parallel the lives were with our mothers in so many ways.
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Difficult relationships but we stuck with our mothers, and they died in the company of people that loved and appreciated them. I had to help the undertakers as they were clumsy and reassure the slightly younger one.
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I had written two haiku poems for my father, and even though we didn’t really get on, he knew I was there for him, all politics set aside from him. What I didn’t realise was that I’d write so many haiku and haibun about my mother.
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My deepest condolences. I will always value how close we became, and how honest, and laughed as much as possible.
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this tie
or that tie
I think you’d prefer
the louder one
at your funeral
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Alan Summers
Ripples in the Sand
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2016 Tanka Society of America Members’ Anthology
ed. Susan Constable and Jenny Ward Angyal
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http://www.tankasocietyofamerica.org/tsa-anthologies
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p.s. I just told Karen and she sending her love.
I’m sorry Paul. It is difficult to bear even when we know that it was better that they slip away. Thinking of you and yours.
Thank you Ellen
her wintry bed
by another shrunken bud
down with typhoid
her note pad in duress dull
hospital doors
the coming and going
of a winter’s day
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Robert Kingston
Jumble Box: Haiku and Senryu from National Haiku Writing Month, published in 2017 by Press Here and edited by Michael Dylan Welch,
Dear Radhamani
My apologies, I don’t know why this posted here. I thought I’d posted to the box at the bottom of the page.
Kind regards
Robert
Dear Robert Kingston,
Greetings. Sorry for belated reply
Your take”
hospital doors
the coming and going
of a winter’s day
A lot into the content and repetitive action of hospital doors and the season . Getting deeper and deeper.
Yes .. those doors Robert